Firstly the bad news:
I was dismissed from work this morning. My boss said that he's so sorry but he have to dismiss me (my sister and my cousin, too) because he has some solvency problems.
... I won't talk about it. I'm so f#*&ing angry...

But there's also a good news:
I get to The Pomeranian University in Slupsk! I'm English philology student! Can you believe it?
I'm so happy I can hardly think. Thanks for keeping your fingers crossed *HUG*

That was a hard day. I've to be at work at 5am and I was home at 2pm. I work with my cousin, we were talking about her one year old son and she told me that she had a plans for weekend but her son's babysitter is ill so she have to change her plans and stay home tonight.
So I said that I could take care of him. I saw him only few times so I regretted what I said in the same time. What's more I had completly no experience with taking care of babies.
But I wasn't that bad as I thought it would be. At the beginning he was confused but me and my sister took him for a walk.
He's really cute baby but I'm definitely not ready to have one.

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I hadn't go to work today so I finally did a few things for which I hadn't time or I just didn't feel like it. First of all I did a thorough cleaning. I had no idea how many cables I have around my bedside table...
Then I went shopping, I hate it but this time I did even enjoy it. I bought myself a camera. Nothing special, but me and my sister used to have one camera and always when I needed or wanted to take some pictures, the battery was dead because my dear sister "forgot to charge it".

I spent rest of my day reading Sailor's Journal. Twisk's on holiday so probably no one else would know what I'm talking about. Maybe Rabbit will, finally she's a Rabbit.

I'm in a good mood today. I think it's because of Bowie's "Hunky Dory". I can't stop smiling when I'm listening to this album. Love it!

"Happiness is happening
The dragons have been bled
Gentleness is everywhere
Fear's just in your Head
Only in your Head
Fear is in your Head
Only in your Head
So Forget your Head
And you'll be free"

Bowie - Fill you heart

Hugs for all of you :)

I still haven't gotten my results from university. Waiting is killing me.
But I'm getting more and more calm. Know I can't do nothing more than waiting now.

I've lost a friend 3 weeks ago. It's quite hard to understand that you don't actually know a person who was for you like a sister for such a long time. It's painful but I won't take the blame, not this time.
Maybe it would be just a little bit easier if I move out from the town. Finally I'll have to if I get to the University.

"And I'm gone gone gone
And I'm older than movies
Oh let me dance dance dance
Now I'm wiser than dreams
Let me fly fly fly
While I'm touching tomorrow
And I know who's there
When silhouettes fall
And I'm gone"
David Bowie- Dead man walking

I didn't write for a really long time...
I started my holiday job on Monday and I'm completly exhausted. I can barely think. I'll work 6days per week for 2 months and I already can't feel my feets.

I know my exams results now and I'll try to get to the University. I submitted my application today, so please, keep your fingers crossed!

I'm mad as hell... My father is getting insane, well maybe he's just a bloody asshole.
Today at 3am he and 10 his friends came to our house, drunk as hell. They're drinking and making such an incredible noise. After an hour my mum went to his room and asked if the could be quiet.
His friends went home and he started yelling at my mum, so I started to yelling at him... It really wasn't a nice night.
Now he threatens to stop giving us money... I hate him so much...
My contract of employment ends in June. I'll try to find a work with a higher salary ...
I probably can forget about the university. Gods! I went to the best high-school to go to university and now I've to earn money because my own father is a fucking idiot.
I have no control over my own emotions. I have to control myself realy hard to not to slap him in face.

My love.... Good-night love... You're already sleepy... I still see you shadow on the wall...

My dog passed away yesterday. It's so damn hard. It wasn't just a god, she was like a family member with full rights. I bought her when I was 6, now I'm almost 20. When I was a kid I carried her home, yesterday I carried her body for a last time... Usually I don't cry but yesterday I was crying like a madman...

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I'm so lazy these days... There's a lot of things I should or have to do but I can't brace myself to do it. I just go to work , come back and then I'm sitting the rest of the day in front of my computer, reading some ff or watching some movies.

The weather is horrible... Is middle of February and it's 14'C ! It's more spring than winter... I want snow... When is winter and there's so snow I've got terrible mood.

I'll make a new header maybe it'll mend my mood.

If you're on my friends-list, I want to know 36 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine ... You're on my list, so I want to know you better!

Be honest! Copy from here, then send directly to me in a comment, then repost the empty questions.

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Today I acted like a complete fool. I'm a blood donor, I was giving my blood today morning and then I went to work. It wasn't wise at all... A few times I almost faint, so I had to sit behind my desk all day, because I was to weak to go home. Really, If you're going to give your blood , better take a day off.

I'm still here , maybe not so often but I'm.

YAY! LOST is back in 10 days!